Judging from the responses I’ve gotten I seem to have hit a nerve with this topic. I know I’ve only gotten two responses to part one as I write this – but for this blog that’s a lot!
Let no one say I don’t listen to my readers!
Unfortunately I don’t have all the answers. I’m not the accomplished expert on this topic, just a fellow struggler on the road that somehow, somewhere leads to Christ likeness. (Unless you define expert the way I like too – then I am a expert! Expert = “A drip under pressure.” That would be me!)
I want to look at that verse again, and look at another phrase from it:
Teach me your way, O LORD,
and I will walk in your truth;
give me an undivided heart,
that I may fear your name.
Psalms 86:11 (NIV)
When people ask me about this topic I almost always say that I’ve been working on my “heart issues” for years now. The last four years in particular it has been an overshadowing presence in nearly everything I’ve done.
From mission trips, to recovery, to dieting to dating; working on opening up my hard heart has been behind it all. It all stems from the realization (revelation, whatever) that hit me on my first trip to Myanmar about the rather sad, divided conditon of my heart.
Since then I’ve worked very hard, with varying degrees of success on trying to end the compartmentalization of my heart. It’s been a long, tough road. I’ve had a lot of encouragement along the way, and am grateful to all of you who have cheered me on. I’ve also encountered a lot of misunderstanding and even some opposition as well. All part of the process.
It’s been a lot of work for me.
Which makes David’s words all the more compelling to me. He asks God to “give me an undivided heart.”
Give? What’s up with that? You mean I’ve been working all these years for something I could just have recieved as a gift from God? No work, no struggle, no hassle, it just sort of comes to me down out of the sky?
I don’t think so.
I do believe that ultimately an undivided heart is a gift from God, and cannot even be approached much less achieved without Him, His Spirit, grace, Word, etc.
But I also believe you have to struggle to get there.
All of which shouldn’t have come as such a surprise to me I suppose. After all Salvation is a gift isn’t it? Yet how often do we remember what Paul said?
Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed–not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence–continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose. Philippians 2:12-13 (NIV)
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